im not who i am! [part 2]

yeah so back to i am not who i am i don't do the things i do at church at school and that is bad i pray everyday or rarely! i just pray when i get sad or mad and it helps me a lot! i like learning about Jesus and stuff but i feel horrible when im at school i say bad words and bully people of there shortness! i go to aleif middle school
and they have 6 grade in it im the youngest one there but also the meanest and i feel so sorry for the people i talked behind there back and stuff! i want to be myself everyone in my school or most kids they are bad and mean and i don't want to become that person i want to live in heaven and see everyone i love up there too! my mom and dad are divorced and they both believe in Buddha! i want they to learn about what Jesus did for us he died on the cross for us for our sins! i want to see my parents up in heaven! i wan to see myself in heaven! so i have to change in school and be like im in church!